Her 1st Year Birthday Celebration

Her 1st Year Birthday Celebration

3-Monthly PhD Review

Tuesday, 31 August 2010

Today, i had my 3-months PhD review in the morning. It is basically a 10 minutes presentation on my research background and hypotheses. It was a bit scary but I think it went quite well.

The committees gave some feedback especially on my writing and prsentation skills. One of the panel were pleased and suggested that I should start reading lots of journals to help me write a new article and publish something new. Big relief that i finally get it out of the way. Thanks to my supervisor (Prof Greg) and mini supervisor and colleague (Sarah, Deepak, David, Brie and Cornell) for helping out too.

Little Princess, as expected, still doing great! The only problem she is having is that she is just much too cuter and chubbier now. She moves alot too!! Half an hour before her meal time, she likes to turn her head to the left and to the right, back and forth. It is a sign that she is getting hungry. The nurse also told me that Rania is showing some cues to breastfeed too. Her current weight is now 1258g, she is slowly and steadily developing!!

CPAP Graduation

Monday, 30 August 2010

My exclusive photo after my CPAP graduation.. Freshly woken up by Mummy visiting.. Miss you Mummy!! :)

Great news!!! Today, little Princess Rania has graduated herself from using CPAP. This is very much a BIG news!!! Now I can see her pretty little face all the time. Plus she's chubbier than ever before.

I just knew there was something happening today because i realised something was different in my morning visit. When i arrived, Sister Jo, the baby nurse was happy to see me and greeted me loudly, which was rather unusual. She smiled and asked if i wanted to hear the good news?? I smiled back at her and delightedly said yes. She said little princess already had her CPAP removed completely!! This is not just a good new, this is a FANTASTIC news!! She was doing great!! During her feed, her oxygen saturation was almost a 100% most of the time. Sister Jo said that little Rania is trying to show off that she can breathe on her own now.. Hehe. So Cute!!

Dr. Adam, being a cautious kind of person he is, finally decided to take her CPAP off completely, although i knew little Princess was ready way back. I completely understand that Dr Adam just wanted to be sure little Princess was completely ready rather than having to come back on CPAP again. That could actually happen and has happened to other premature babies. I was feeling a bit nervous at the begining because i wasn't sure how she would cope up with it. But during the night visit, she was still doing good without CPAP. That is a good indication that she doesn't need them anymore. Yippie!! Rania's Daddy was really excited with the news too. He is really excited and looking forward to see little Rania proceed to the next big thing, natural breastfeeding!!

Her feed is currently 18mls every 2 hours!!. Her current weight s now 1218g!! For someone her size, that is a BIG achievement, 125% more than her original birth weight!!! I'm really happy to see her development going uphill!!

Weekend Update

Sunday, 29 August 2010

It has been a while since my last post. I have been so pre-occupied with my PhD's three months review and making time for my little Princess. I hardly had the time to update anything on the blog. I was even hardly at home!!

Not to worry because little Princess is doing very well day by day. She has shown a very promising development!! My guess is that she is trying to prove that she is a very good girl, knowing her Daddy is coming over to visit her next week!!

I spent most of the Saturday and Sunday at the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit looking after my baby girl. The baby nurses were kind enough to let me do their jobs. It felt as if i was a part time baby nurse, the only difference is i am looking after my own baby. It is a good time to catch up with her since i'm not always around her. Little Princess is doing very well without once her oxygen had desaturated, which is a good sign!! Because she was doing so well, i was able to do her wash, do her feeds, change her dipers, tidy up of her clothes, books and boxes as well as clean up her cot.

However much i spent time with her, i just couldn't have enough. It was tiring but worth the time!! I was again reminded that her trial without CPAP could happen Monday next week. I'm really excited and cannot wait for that to happen!! Because that can only mean that she is closer to going home. I was also told that she would be transfered to an open cot when she weighs between 1600g up to 1800g.  Her weight is now 1154g.

She is one strong baby now!! I am very much too excited to bring her back home!!

Future Pregnancy

Friday, 27 August 2010

Little Princess has shown signs of her really wanting to feed the natural way. The nurses said little Rania will be very good with breastfeeding judging by the way she gobbled her dummy. Today, i had my follow up appointment with the medical consultant (this was originally cancelled but the Dr decided to have it still) just to update on how i've been coping at work and at home. We also had a long discussion on plan for future pregnancy. She suggested that i should immediately inform the hospital as soon as i have discovered i'm pregnant. One of the options was stitching around about 12 weeks. She said that this stitching can make a big difference in preventing reccurring miscarriages. InsyaAllah.

Yesterday, i was told by the baby nurse, that Dr Adam made an instruction note to schedule an off-CPAP trial, next week. I was very much too happy about the news!! Much happier to see my little Princess was sleeping soundly most of the time - a sign of a happy baby!! Maybe she had heard about the news of the trial. Hehe. While she was asleep, i read her a few fairy tales stories. Like her Daddy, she can really sleep. Her cot was getting messy at one point, so i also help tidy up her books and organised her clothes boxes.

Watching over her sound asleep makes me very calm, making me want to sleep as well. I couldn't help notice that she is getting cuter and more adorable too!! How i wish i wouldn't have to leave her every night!!

Eyes Development

Wednesday, 25 August 2010

Little Princess had her eyes checked today. It is a requirement that any baby born before 32 weeks gestation had to undergo eye's scan to see if it is developing properly. This is simply because a premature baby's retina is incompletely developed. The test is carried out by an ophthalmologist , who came to see her this morning to examine her eyes. Alhamdulillah, her eyes tests showed good results. I was delighted about the news!! This is Excellent news!!!

Her new weight was 1140g!! Still on CPAP level 5cmH2O and on air. Good girl!!

Sucking Reflexes

Tuesday, 24 August 2010

Being a clever little girl that Princess Rania is, she is already showing Mummy how strong her sucking reflexes are. It is getting more and more visible!! Even i could hear it and even more obvious when i cuddle her, but only thing there was nothing to suck on.. Cute!!

Reluctant at first, hubby and i decided to let our little Princess practice her sucking senses using a pacifier just for a short while. This was only after a number of consideration that first she is still in the cot and second because she wasn't allowed to breast feed naturally as yet because of her CPAP is getting her way. Also after consultation by her Dr that there is no side effect if only put on for a short term. Little Rania seemed happy because she finally has something to suck on. I'm really impressed that even at her first time having the pacifier, she was already holding it with her cute little fingers, using both hands all by herself. Cute little Baby!! The baby nurses were all amazed that someone her size was clever enough to hold the dummy like the way she did.

Hubby and i agreed that we will remove it once she starts on natural breastfeeding, that way she will not notice it, i hope. She will understand because she is a clever girl now!!

Trial On Natural Breathing

Tuesday, 24 August 2010

Rania's 8th blogpost:

Assalamualaikum and Hello everyone!! Rania here again!!

Yesterday, I had the most awesome time! My personal doctor, Dr. Adam decided to have my CPAP removed while cuddling with Mummy. He said it was a short trial for me to breathe without CPAP. It was really nice to be able to sleep around Mummy's arms without the tubes around my head. Having the CPAP off my face made me sleep even better. Now i love cuddling with Mummy even more!! I was allowed to stay off CPAP through out the cuddle but the nurses were cautios and only allowed it for about an hour or so, because they were worried that my breathing might be affected. But they were all worried for nothing, i was doing great!!

Because i was doing very well with my breathing during the cuddle, the doctors decided during their morning round today, that i would be allowed to get my CPAP removed in future cuddle-sessions with Mummy. Yippie!! I like the idea!! I think this would be the transition before completely removing the CPAP. Can't wait to get the mask off my face again!! Taking the CPAP off is easy, putting it back on makes me really cranky, everytime. But it is all worthed!! I could see Mummy was happy to see me without the mask on, Mummy just have to cuddle me more often. And she promised she would!! Thanks Mummy!!

Oh yeah another wonderful news, I have gained another 62g. I'm now 1092g!! I was told by Mummy that when i reach 1600g i would be transfered to an open cot. I guess that would means i have to gain another 500g of body mass. I cannot wait!!

Life Balance: Work & Family

Monday, 23 August 2010

I haven't been updating much about what i've been up to these days. You must be wondering whether or not i'm already back at work? The answer is yes!

I've started working full time since 2nd of August. I'm dividing my time properly between my PhD work and my little one. Lets just say, i'm looking for the right balance between work and family. My daily routine is to visit her in the morning before I come to work, drop-by at lunch time and spend another 3 hrs sometimes 4 hrs after work. Normally i have a nice cuddle with her after work, because it is most relaxing time. My three months PhD review is coming up on the 31st of August, exactly a week from now. I'm currently preparing for it, i need to do a short report on my work progress to date, as well as a 10 minutes presentation slides. At the same time, i'm catching up with my lab work where i left off about two months ago. Sounds like it is going to be busy weeks ahead for me.

Wish me good luck!

1 Kg Milestone!!

Sunday, 22 August 2010

Biggest news!! Princess Rania was weighed midnight last night. Her new weight is now 1030g!! I'm pretty excited. I immediately texted Rania's Daddy in Brunei, he was really happy with news too. The baby nurses at the NICU gave Princess Rania a big pink star for reaching 1kg!  It really took them a lot of time and effort in making the STAR. In fact i was there the whole time when they made it. They also put little hand and foot prints as well as her freshly taken photo in the STAR. It was amazing how much effort they put into it. At the end 3 hrs time, it was wonderful! I'm loving the STAR!!

Princess Rania seems to be happy with her little STAR that her oxygen saturation was pretty good the whole night. Almost the whole 4 hours i was visiting her in the evening, her oxygen saturation was around 100!! Pretty amazing!! Well done little Princess!!

Take a look at little Princess's STAR. Thanks to all the baby nurses for the star!!

Brainstorming session for making little Rania's STAR in progress
  
Rania's STAR when half way complete
 
Hoooray!! The STAR is now complete!!
       

CPAP Level 5 Air

Saturday, 21 August 2010


Today her CPAP level 5cmH2O is completely on AIR at around 4pm. I noticed little Princess is smiling alot today!! She must be really happy from the 2 hr-cuddle we had yesterday.  This means little Princess is just one step away from breathing naturally. Previously her CPAP level 5cmH2O was still requiring some oxygen support from the machine. I'm hoping she is tolerating this level very well, so far she is doing great!!

Mummy and Daddy are so proud of you little Princess!! We cannot wait for you to come back home so that we can hold you in our arms all the times!!

What's on her mind?

Friday, 20 August 2010

Rania's 7th blogpost:

It has been a while that i have not written anything since my last post. Yesterday was another exciting day for me!! My CPAP was lowered to 5cmH2O, that is the lowest CPAP level there is. I'm still on the same level today, only better!! I heard Mummy and the nurse having a conversation saying that I am doing pretty good with my low ventilation setting. While I was sleeping i had a feeling Mummy was excited because she talked to me a lot. I couldn't understand what she was saying but it really soothes me hearing her voice and that she's around. At one point, I was too excited, that I screamed out loud!! Mummy was a little surprised to hear my cute little voice. Hehe. But after a while, I was slightly cranky because i was due for my next feed. Mummy helped out with the feed, the next thing i realized that I was already sound asleep, dreaming about my Daddy in Brunei. Mummy told me that Daddy is coming to see me pretty soon. In preparation for that, I will eat as much as possible so that I grow bigger that Mummy and Daddy can cuddle me, everyday and everynight!!

Then i saw Mummy was all settled on the big comfortable couch next to my cot. Then I knew, I was about to be cuddled! It was a wonderful cuddle with Mummy. I had a nice 2hrs sleep very close to my Mummy. She talked to me most of the time. At one point, Mummy was quiet, she had fallen asleep!! Must be comforting to her, as much as I felt. I love you Mummy!!

After the cuddle, I was washed and and weighed. Yippie! Mummy helped out with  my wash. I was happy and enjoyed it a lot. My new weight is now 978g! I have gained some weight. I'm a big girl now. Message to my lovely Daddy in Brunei: Mummy and I miss Daddy lots, Daddy should cuddle me next time! Daddy Promise! I promise to be a good girl.

Zakat Fitrah

Thursday, 19 August 2010


It is the time of the year for Zakat Fitrah!! Zakat Fitrah is a form of giving (charity) given to the  to those who are less fortunate in the community. The word zakat means both 'purification' and 'growth'. The payment of Zakat Fitrah is obligatory for every muslim and must be paid before the end of the fasting period on the last day of the Islamic holy month of Ramadhan.

Hubby has fullfilled his obligation by paying Zakat Fitrah for our family including little Princess Rania, after Tarawih, which took place at sister-in-law's house today. The person who received the payment is our Uncle, Mudim Haji Safar bin Haji Bolaji, who happens to be one of the authorised Zakat receivers in Brunei. The Picture was taken by Cuzin Diman (thanks!). Hubby also made Zakat payments for Mom and Dad, who are both here in Brisbane with me. Thanks Huby!

CPAP Level 5

Thursday, 19 August 2010

Baby Rania's CPAP level  was this morning lowered to level 5 cmH2O. Yeay!! She is adapting very well with this current level. I was surprised the baby nurse told me she was already scheduled for another weight-in. Because her weighing in is usually every 2 days, and she already had her weight-in yesterday, next one be should due tomorrow. As i was curious to know, I helped the baby nurse to give little Princess her bath and with her weight-in. She's now 978g!  She seemed to enjoy her bath very well. As little Princess is now doing very well, the baby nurses suggested that Hubby and i could now do her bath more often! Pretty exciting moment!!

On a side note, i had a funny story to tell. Our car is currently under maintenance in the workshop. So we decided to have a little quest to visit little Rania by bus to the hospital. Going there was easy. Going back was rather confusing. My parents and I had a very unexpected adventure with the bus to get home from the hospital. We went onto the wrong bus!!! But we managed to finally arrive home safely. My parents seemed to enjoy the bus trip so much. I guess we just need to learn to catch the right bus to get to our destination! Next time!! Next time will be with Hubby because lovely Hubby is planning to come first week of September, i really can't wait to have another bus adventure together!

Almost There!!

Wednesday, 18 August 2010

Midnight last night, she was washed and weighed by her Aunty Jackie.  She is now weighing 944g!! I have to say a big well done to the little princess, another 56g, she will then get her 1kg star from the nurses.

With her new weight, her new full feed is now 14mls every 2 hours.

Having a research office which is just the same building with the hospital, it is quite convenient to pop in to visit her anytime i'm free. So this morning, before I went to work, I dropped by at NICU just to say a little hi to my not so little anymore now, my sweetie Princess Rania. Hubby (though he is in Brunei now) and i are still very excited about baby Rania's moving to the new room. The environment in the new place is slightly different than her previous place. I think its a bit quieter with most of the the babies are already placed in an open cot. I must say the room is quite spacious too!! Today, I saw one of the babies practising on his swallowing reflexes. Can't wait for baby Rania to be on that stage too :)

I am very much happier to have discovered that her doctor, Dr Adam also has turned her CPAP pressure level down to 6cmH2O at around 8am today!! He planned to keep her at this level if she can sustain it. I'm sure she can and she will! Way to go, Princess!

Room 5 Graduation

Tuesday, 17 August 2010

On my evening visit today, I had a wonderful 2-hour kangaroo cuddle with the little Princess. She seemed to be enjoying the cuddle as much as I did. It was really amazing!!

Another big day for little Princess!!! Little Rania has been progressing very well overall. She hardly give any hard time to any of the baby nurses who were caring for her. Her doctor and baby nurses were so pleased that they decided that after we had the cuddle, she would be moved to another room, from room 5 to room 2. Room 5 in the NICU is usually to accomodate newly born preemie who are still weak and require the most attention. Room 2, although still in the NICU is for those babies who are getting stronger, healthier, and bigger too!! This means that she is one step closer to SCU (Special Care Nursery) where she will be placed in a normal baby cot before going home!! The nurses were all hoping and highly expecting that little Princess would progress very well with her CPAP. I'm sure she will eventually grow out of it and be moved to Special Care Nursery.. Ammin!!

Mummy and Daddy are really proud of you, little Princess!! The room change has taken me by surprise, it was as if i was dreaming!! I'm really excited!!

Took a couple of photos during her transfer ,and the new room too. I love her new room!!

      

CPAP level 7

Monday, 16 August 2010

Wonderful news!! Little Princess is doing really well with her breathing on CPAP. Being a bigger and chubbier girl that little Rania is now, her doctor decided that she should move on one step further by weaning her CPAP pressure level down to 7cmH2O. Yeay!!

She is coping really well with this change in pressure setting. I heard a much louder cry! She was sneezing a lot too, too cute!! I just can't have enough of watching over her!!

Full Feed & CPAP Level 8

Sunday, 15 August 2010

It has been 2 full days that our little Princess Rania is completely on CPAP. Before that she was on NIPPV for 8 days. She is one little strong fighter!! Mummy and Daddy are so proud of you Baby Princess!!

I have discovered that CPAP has different levels of pressure variables, highest being 9cmH2O and lowest being 5cmH2O. All our little Rania has to do is to slowly and steadily go down with the CPAP pressure. These variability will control the level of dependency any baby requires from the breathing machine. She is currently on level of pressure 8 cmH2O. The next step would be to lower her CPAP's pressure level down to level 7 eventually to 5 cmH2O. This simply means, as the level goes down, her lungs require less and less pressure from the machine to keep her lungs inflated, while controlling her breathing her own. This can only means good thing as her lungs is getting stronger and more mature to stay inflated on their own. Alhamdulillah!!

I really hope she will be at level 5 cmH2O soon because the next step after level 5 will be natural breathing. The Doctor said this could still be a long way to go for some baby, but with little Rania's progress, she'll be there in no time!

Great news, Rania's new weight is now 882 g compare to her previous weight of 846 g. Yippie!! Well done my little Princess! Starting today, the doctor also added some fortifier to her milk to help her gain more weight much faster. I'm looking forward on how much this fortifier is contributing to her next weight gain difference. Rania is no longer on any drip, she's now having 100% of breast milk! I can tell she is one happy baby! She is loving Mummy's milk!!

Breaking Fast in Ramadhan

Saturday, 14 August 2010

Today, one of our lovely neighbours, Ka Yati and Hubby had organized an event for all the Bruneian families and students studying here in Brisbane. It was a very enjoyable day for most of us!!

There were seriously a lot of food! That includes different kinds of fruit fritters, fried noodle, varieties of chicken dish, prawns and the list goes on and on. All foods were really good!!! I wish hubby was here, he would have loved them. It was nice to catch up with the other Bruneians too, since i have been pre-occupied with pregnancy, labour and maternity rest for our little Rania for the past 3 months..
 
We managed to take some photos.. Enjoy!

       

31 Weeks Gestation

Friday, 13 August 2010

Today, our little Princess Rania is 31 weeks  by gestational age. That is how old in the pregnancy she would have been if she was still in the womb as compared to about 40 weeks if born full-term.

Her breathing has improved. Today is a big day for our little Princess!!! Based on her breathing record, her Dr decided to put her on CPAP today around 8.30am. Her daddy was very happy when i told him over the phone. I can hear him smile on the other side of the phone!! On our visit in the afternoon, i was very pleased to find out she is tolerating this breathing mode very well, which in fact she is very much liking it for the whole day. I've never seen her more comfortable!! This means she is now doing all the breathing on her own (with mimimal support by the breathing machine). The next step should be natural breathing. Its so hard to see our baby with CPAP on!! I really cannot wait for her graduation from CPAP. I know she will eventually grow out of it.

Her feed is now 10mls every 2 hour. I've always been checking on her tummy condition, much to my delight that her tummy is tolerating my milk well. Before we left, i slowly whispered to her ears "Mummy and daddy are very proud of you, Rania", she smiled and just continued sleeping. That will give Mummy a good night sleep!!!

Later at mid night, she was again weighed. I made a call about early morning, around 2am to find out how much she now weighs. I'm one happy mom!! She is now 846g!! She only needs another 154g to reach her next milestone - 1 kg. I really cannot wait!! The baby nurses told me that once she reaches 1 kg, our little Princess Rania will get a special award - A Big STAR!! That star will be hung on top of her bed!!

Gaining Weight!!

Thursday, 12 August 2010


Last night, litttle Princess Rania was weighed by Auntie Jackie. She is now 812g. Yippie!! Her weight gain was slow last week, maybe it had to do with her tummy rest. But this week she is gaining and gaining more fat, in fact that 812g is the highest she has ever been! I'm so proud of her! Now i'm looking forward for her to reach her 1000g milestone!!

Her breathing has improved too. Her doctor said she was doing well, very much to my delight. On my visit last night, she was unsettled, while her sucking reflexes was getting more apparent. Even i can tell, she is obviously looking for something to suck-upon and would rather not settle until her Auntie Jackie put her finger in her mouth. Jackie suggested i should just get her a pacifier to soothe her. But, I'm not sure if the quick fix pacifier is a good idea after reading about it. Please comment..

Eid Mubarak

Wednesday, 11 August 2010


Ramadhan is back!! We would like to wish all of you Happy Ramadhan Al-Mubarak!! This is our first Ramadhan celebration in the presence of our lovely Princess Rania. In fact, my first time celebrating Ramadhan in Brisbane. Just like in Brunei, the moon was successfully sighted tonight in Brisbane and that would mark tomorrow, according to Islamic calendar, the beginning of the holy month of Ramadhan. I can already feel that i'm feeling abit homesick during this fasting month especially the local foods!! Every year during Ramadhan, hubby and i loved going scavanging for foods at the food stalls at the Berakas Stadium in preparation for Sungkai (breaking fast). We also loved trying out different Sungkai Buffet Promotions at different restaurants across Brunei. However, i'm sure being here with Rania is more than good enough to quench all my thirst away than cravings for some local foods!!

Sewing Project

Tuesday, 10 August 2010

Rania's Grand-Ma has been busy with her new gift from Rania, a sewing machine!!! Her goal is to create some cute little pillows specially tailored for Baby Rania. It is simply because, we discover pillows that suits her size is really uncommon and can hardly be found at shops, we have to exclusively make one for her. She actually already made one little curved bolster pillow last week, Rania loves to cuddle with it so much and able to sleep really well. Lucky Rania!! Being the first grandchild from my side (Hubby has about 34 nephew and nieces altogether!!), i can already see that Rania is already spoilt by her Grand-Ma!!

At the end, she managed to make one rectangular shaped pillow and one u-shaped bolster. They are really cute, soft and very huggable!!! The fabric that she used to make them is specially flown from Brunei. Hubby brought them over from his previous trip. I have to say it is a job well done!! I don't think i'd be able to make it as neat as that (just look at the end product photo below). Looking forward for her next sewing pattern design!!


Princess Diary

Monday, 9 August 2010

Rania's 6th Post:


Thank you to all baby nurses for updating my diary based on my daily progress. Some nurses are really creative. They use stickers just to beautify their post - you can see on 2nd photo above, Aunty Moon for example used a pink butterfly and a cute ribbon stickers on her blog. Thanks Aunty!! Some printed small pictures of me and stick them on along with their comments. Sometimes, when some of the pages are blank, Daddy and Mummy would write something in it too just to fill in the gap. Once in a while read my diary out to me.. I cannot wait to grow big and read my own diary!!

Happy 1st-Month Birthday!

Sunday, 8 August 2010

Happy 1st Month Birthday to our little princess Rania!

It has been a true miracle that our little baby have gone through this far! I know our precious little baby has a long journey ahead of her, i always believed that it is never too early to thank everone especially baby nurses and doctors, whom have been so caring and loving for her and for every little contribution they make. For it is every little contribution that can make the big difference!

Brief Summary of Rania Aleesya's Story

Rania Aleesya was born at 25 weeks + 4 days gestation (13 weeks early), after my water broke at 22 weeks.  After a great deal of prayer (which many family and friends participated in!), Rania turned into a miracle. Alhamdulillah, all signs have been good and even her Doctors (including us!) have high expectations that she would grow up a healthy baby, Amin! InsyaAllah!

Pregnancy

Since I first discovered i was pregnant, it had been a smooth sailing journey for me until at 22 week when I had my "water breaking" (this wasn't a small amount of fluid!). After i went to the emergency room, met the doctor, had my medical check using ultrasound that she confirmed that i was diagnosed with PROM (Premature Rupture of the Membranes). At the time, however, I was told some fluid discharded was not uncommon in a healthy pregnancy, and the baby would either miscarry or be fine, no matter what I did. When the doctor did an ultrasound, even I could see that the amniotic fluid around our baby was extremely low. I was sent to the maternity ward on bed rest until labour. I was scheduled to meet up with the head of obstetrician the next day.

The day I saw the obstetrician was the worst day of my life. She had nothing positive to say. She explained how important amniotic fluid is to the baby at this stage, and told me that our child could come out anytime and would probably not be able to breathe at birth. She also said that if she somehow managed to breathe, she'd probably have born malformations, because there was virtually no amniotic fluid to protect her from being crushed by my organs. In addition, she was extremely at high risk for cerebral palsy, blindness, and a host of other medical issues. We were in utter shock.

The specialist advised me to "terminate the pregnancy," which Hubby and I refused to do. There was no way I was going to abort my baby.

The doctor told me I'd probably miscarry within a week or two. Rania didn't miscarry (she is one strong girl!) the first 2 weeks i was on bed rest, and I did not develop an infection, so the plan was to keep me in the hospital until at the beginning of my 28th week, for me to be allowed home resting, if Rania made it that far. At 24th weeks of my pregnancy on bed rest, i was given steroid shots to help Rania's lungs develop. The next day I had another. Ealier, I strongly questioned why I couldn't do all this sooner rather than at 24 weeks, nobody gave me a straight forward answer, other than to say the baby wasn't "viable" until 24 weeks or so. This was upsetting, but the fact that Rania hadn't miscarried in two weeks (the doctors were wrong!) gave me some confidence. I was going to carry this baby at least until 28 weeks, I decided. (I later discovered that babies as early as 22 weeks can survive outside the womb but the chance is very slim). At 25th week, I was given another steroid shot and one the day after.

I was examined and was told I wondered if maybe I had some sort of infection. The obstetric team tested the fluid, but the test was inconclusive. They also looked at the fluid under a microscope, watching for the "ferning" that typifies amniotic fluid. The fluid did not fern. (I later learned amniotic fluid often does not fern when looked at so early in a pregnancy). More and more colourless amniotic fluid was slowly discharged but in small amount. I later discovered that the baby has the ability to replenish her own fluid. That is one amazing miracle of life!! Since i was on bed, many different midwives had looked after me, monitoring for Rania's heartbeat every 4 hourly, doing observations on my temperature, blood pressures and any signs of inflamations from my blood test. But all test shows there has been no signs of infection, until later that they discovered that i might be having urinary trait infection. Even then the result was inconclusive.

Her Amazing Birth Story


At 25th week, i started to have contraction. They came and went, but eventually became pretty strong. I asked the doctor to prescribe some contraction-reducing medicine but she refused and that she preferred it all happened naturally. They continued getting stronger, until I was in real pain. Soon enough, i discovered i had some red fluid discharged. I was rushed to the emergency room. The doctor did an ultrasound to see if Rania was breech; she wasn't. However, the doctor adviced that if Rania was to be delivered safely, they could still have to perform C-section to prevent any complication. She was then going to do a physical exam to see if I was dilated to find out Rania's head was already poping out.

At 4:20 pm, through natural birth, my doctor pulled Rania out from me and handed her to a neonatologist (a doctor who specializes in treating preemies). Assisted by eight other nurses and doctors, he stucked a tube down Rania's throat and tried to resuscitate her. A nurse later told me they had difficulties getting oxygen into Rania's lungs, and felt sure this baby was not going to make it. But the doctors were (once again!) wrong. Rania was resuscitated. She weighed 1 lb. 1.5 oz. and had no malformations. She was born at exactly 25 weeks and 4 days.

Rania was and is still in a private room. Initially she was hooked up to a ventilator that did all her breathing. Rania was diagnosed with chronic lung disease (BPD) and was treated for the latter with medication. At 29 weeks gestation she graduated to a ventilator that only "breathed" when she didn't NIPPV, and then is about to start her breathing with CPAP in a couple of days time.

Ekka, Brisbane 2010

Saturday, 7 August 2010

For the past few days, on our way to visit our little Rania, we always drive past this one buzy street across Bowen Park just next to the RBWH. It seemed like there was some event going on in the park, an event, which as the big banner that was put up at the park entrance suggested, the event is called Ekka.

Today, after visiting our Princess Rania, Hubby and i made a decision to take a walk at the crowd and try to find out what happen. Because, it is quite close to the hospital about less than five minutes walk, so we just walked to the park. It was later from the fliers that was handed out at the entrance, that that we discovered Ekka is actually an annual event in Brisbane that only happens for 10 days every August of the year. To our surprise there were games in there, fun rides and many more. They also have science exhibition, animal farms, garden landscape displays and so much many more. I really wanted to win something for our Princess Rania. So we tried some of the games. I knew hubby was pretty good with some of the game because in the UK we went to similar type of fun fair event, Notingham Goosefair. We also stayed to watch the fireworks, car and motorcyle show. Pretty Amazing!! Will definitely bring our baby Rania there when she is already big. At the end of the day, hubby won 2 big toys and 1 small one, whereas i only won 1 big toy and a small one from netball games.. Yippie!! All of toys are for our lovely Baby Rania :)

Meal again!!

Saturday, 7 August 2010

Rania's 5th blog post:


Mummy and Daddy are visiting me at least twice daily. When they first arrive they always call my name out "Assalamualaikum Princess Rania... How are you???" That is when i know that they are around. I love it when Daddy or Mummy rubs my back until i'm deep asleep..

Great news!! I have re-commenced my breast milk feed this morning after 5 longs days without it. I really missed mummy's milk. To be gently on my tummy my Dr decided to start with 1 ml 3 hourly. But I'm also still getting my TPN from the drip. Daddy did my feed just today before lunch hour as you can see from his face, he is happy that i'm re-starting my feed. I have been craving for mummy's milk. I'm loving it so much!! I know mummy had been working so hard expressing milk for me during my tummy resting period. Love you Mummy!!

I have been breathing on air ever since i was on NIPPV about 3 days ago!! My Dr was very pleased with my progress. I overheard him said to Aunty Marie Anne, a Philippina baby nurse whom had been very kindly looking after me, that i was doing so well with NIPPV that he was planning to pun me on CPAP soon. Both are actually better than the "High Frequency Ventilation", which i was on earlier. The only difference that CPAP brings is it provides continuous positive air pressure rather than the intermittent positive pressure ventilation. I'm looking forward!!!

Daddy is going back to Brunei tomorrow. I will miss you very much Daddy!!. He will be back sometime in September, a week before Hari Raya!! Will be celebrating Raya as a family for the first time!!! Yeay!! I'm sure there will be alot of changes in me that Daddy will see when he sees me next time.

Princess Rania - The Sleeping Beauty

Friday, 6 August 2010

Rania's 4th post:

Hello everyone!! Princess Rania - The Sleeping Beauty here.. That was the name given to me by Aunty Lauren, one of the baby nurses who was caring for me. She called me that because i guess i was sleeping alot and still am actually. Hehe..

Mid night last night, Mum and dad came to visit me because Mummy couldn't sleep. Poor Mummy!! I missed you too!! Mummy and Daddy had been wanting to give me a surprise visit in the middle of the night. The timing couldn't be more perfect!!! I was about to get washed and weighed. Aunty Moon, a baby nurse from Korea, who happened to take care of me this time, took my breathing ventilation off, which by the way i didn't really need but my Dr still wanted me to have the breathing aid just as a precaution. Hehe. I was weighed and guess what? I had gained some weight, my new weight is now 770g!! Yeay!! Mummy and daddy looked so pleased about my new weight.

Mummy and Daddy were so overwhelmingly happy to see my full face without any breathing intubation, for the first time!! Mummy almost cried but I calmed her down when I smiled at her. Daddy seemed very excited and took thousands of photos of me. I feel so precious!! Apparently many people have requested for my photos especially Aunty Miah & Aunty Sija in Brunei. I would like to share some of my photos, i hope you like.. see photos below, you like?? Please comment on my pictures on the "Have Your Say" chatter box.. Where do you think i got my looks from?? Mummy or Daddy?? Hehe..

Oh yeah, please let me be in your prayers so that i can grow big and go home soon..

Roller Coster Ride..

Thursday, 5 August 2010


It has been a roller-coaster ride mentally and emotionally for hubby and myself watching tiny little Rania going through some hard times. But Rania has been a STAR!! She is starting to gain weight, her skin complextion is getting fairer, her beauty is starting to show. Mummy and Daddy are so proud of you Princess!!

Rania had quite a rough time last weekend. Her breast milk feed was discontinued for a while, maybe a week, because her tummy was slightly distended. The Dr decided to put her gut at rest and put her back on drips to help her gain weight while letting her tummy to recover. Since then, Alhamdulillah, her condition was improving. Her tummy is getting better. Even her oxygen saturation was improving a lot too. Amazingly since then until now, she has been on air oxygen, which means she doesn't require extra oxygen from the ventilation other than that already in the air.

Another amazing story happened last nigtht, when we visited Princess Rania. Neroli, the baby nurse who was caring for her told us that being an active and brave little girl, Princess Rania is, she had pulled her own breathing tube. Clever Princess Rania decided to be put on CPAP, which was not due for another few more days. The Dr and baby nurses made use this opportunity based on Rania's outstanding condition, decided to completely removing her ventilation tube ahead of schedule and replacing them with a milder CPAP ventilation (NIPPV). We were shocked to hear about the news!! But happy at the same time because she is already on CPAP now. Alhamdulillah, hope she is taking this very well an never having to go back to High Frequency Ventilation again.. Amin!

We are deeply, crazily and immensely in love with Princess Rania!!!

Photo Frames..

Wednesday, 4 August 2010

Rania's third blog post:

Thanks Mummy and Daddy for organising my hand and footprints into a frame. If you see clearly, it actually appears in 3D. It looks really good!! If you don't believe me, click the photo below and zoom in for bigger and clearer image..


Also for giving my birth certificates frames for display. That will keep it safe. Yeay!!

I'm a Royal Mum

Tuesday, 3 August 2010


I'm a Royal Mum, not because i'm married to a Royalty but simply because i gave birth to a beautiful Princess at the Royal Brisbane Woman Hospital (RBWH). The hospital came up with a good initiative to honour all mothers who gave birth at the hospital by enlisting their names on one of the hospital's wall, hence they came up with "The Royal Mums Honour Wall". The Honour Wall was officially unveiled at RBWH on Friday 8 May 2009 and is being displayed at the Maternity Ward (see photo below).


The Honour Wall will be updated at least once a year to include all newly registered Royal Mums and any new births. The Honour Wall currently consists of 28 panels listing the names of all registered Royal Mums in alphabetical order. After each name are the years that the mother gave birth at the Royal. Like in my case, it will be listed as "Siti Rohaiza Ahmad, 2010".

I came to know about this Honour Wall when i walked pass this banner at the RBWH entrance, so i registered myself in immediately and hopefully i can see my name after the next update.

World Breast Feeding Week

Monday, 2 August 2010


This week, 1-7 August 2010, is the World Breastfeeding Week!! One of the objectives is to bring the world to an awareness on the message that 'breast is best'. To inform people everywhere that protection, promotion and support of breastfeeding is a mother’s right, a child’s right, and a human right. Not only that, it is also to enable women and all who care about human rights to fight for health care systems which support breastfeeding.

I hope they achieve what they are set to do.. I'm a big supporter of breastfeeding. Breast milk makes healthy babies!!

Sunday Borneo Bulletin

Sunday, 1 August 2010

Hubby's in the newspaper again! He told me that is currently involved in a very important project in BSP, a project that is called DEPO, which stands for Darat Early Production Opportunity!


For more details, please visit the following news link:

Thank You..

Sunday, 1 August 2010

Rania's second blog post:

Dear all. Thank you everyone for the gifts. Heaps of gifts!!! Take a look at the photos of my gifts below. Just take a look only okay.. cos' they are all mine.. :) Oh yeah.. Thanks also to Daddy's collegue also Aunty Jainab for the sedekah. Love you all!!

This one is from Uncle Zul from Brunei.. I love it!!
Thanks to Abg Syafi, Ka Safiya & Abg Safwan for this whole pack!! All the way from Brunei..
These gifts are from Abg Akim & his lovely family. Wait till i'm abit bigger to wear them..
The cute little blanket below is from Ka Syaza & lovely family.. I can see this blanket will become my security blanket. I can rug myself with this to keep me warm!
My favourite. Something for me to watch over when i'm sleeping on my cot.. from Aunty Liza & lovely family
My best gifts are from Mummy and Daddy: singing lullabi dolls... Pooh and seahorse!!
I also want to say thank you to Mummy for buying my first cabinet, exclusively ordered from IKEA!! Love it, it can fit all my dolls and clothes!! Thanks to Dad and GranPa for assembling it. I guess they are all excited to welcome me to come home. I cannot wait to see my nursery!! I cannot wait to go home!!